you said it's useless now to think abt our happy moments when we quarrel because you have forgotten the feeling when we just got together.
you scolded me so furiously i really couldnt recognise you at all
it's different now; even our quarrels. in the past, to me, you were just angry and unhappy. now, i seem like some useless bitch, thick skinned enough to call you back dozen times to ask for ur scoldings.
last night i took so much courage to ask you if you still like me. it's not because i doubt it or because i need assurance from you. i just dont know how someone could bear to use those words on someone who's so dear to them.
i really hate to face this fact i hate this thought lingering in my mind; it's the first time, that you make me feel im just like a non-living. i know you cared for me, but you dont realise that what you really gave are mostly materialistic, tangible things, which i rather forgo all, just for a little of ur concern for my feelings and thoughts. i hate you scolding me selfish, when you dont see it in urself. arent you being selfish when you scold me selfish?
it's painful. ur words are deeply imprinted in my mind.
perhaps we need some revelation in our relationship. i hate the need to keep persuading myself.